It's not been a great week.
I find I've been struggling with exhaustion, and listlessness, a lot this month.
I think the weather has something to do with it - I'm done with Winter, I need to see the sun, I need to feel the sun - I might be deficient of Vitamin D...
My "awesome" week started with very early Monday morning - where I woke up around 4am, and laid in bed awake for 2 hours trying to will myself back to sleep, and then it went from there. I was groggy all day, making stupid mistakes, and just overall feeling like a zombie. My skin is breaking out - perhaps from the stress of selling the condo? Perhaps it was the lack of sleep? I don't know, but it's happening.
We came home from work on Monday, and I received a letter from Revenue Canada stating that because I am now married to Ben, and my family income has increased, I am no longer eligible for GST rebate cheques, and that I have to give back everything they sent me last year (another $300 I don't have). Then after a great Naughty Hottie class (the current highlight of my week) I came home, and proceeded to fumble with my phone and drop it directly into my cat's water dish.
I reacted quickly, and luckily I have two protective covers on it, so the water didn't really get in - but unfortunately my front buttons are not working, and I've managed to put my phone into "safe mode" (read: nothing but emergency calls work). I went over to Telus to try to see if they could get my phone working, and they said that they seem to think it's Safe Mode that has de-activated my buttons, and that I needed to call Telus to get a code to unlock safemode (normally you hold down both the Menu and Power button at the same time to unlock Safe Mode, but my Menu button is one of the inoperable one's).
I called Telus, and they e-mailed me instructions to re-set my phone and remove Safe Mode. I followed them, which wiped my phone of EVERYTHING (lucky for me, Google saved my contacts - so I have that), and I STILL have Safe Mode on, and my buttons still don't work! ... awesome.
In the hopes that maybe it's just that there is a little water still in the phone, and I need to try to get it out - I have my phone sitting in a container of rice for the next day or two to try to draw out the moisture (if that is indeed the problem. But at this point, my phone is a glorified paper weight, so it really can't hurt). Oh - and did I mention this phone is a 4 month old HTC Desire? Yeah... 4 months.
So I'm without a phone currently - which means, I don't have my schedule, my portable e-mail, my weather update, my Kindle, my camera, flashlight, GPS, portable Google search - the list goes on. You never really realize how much you rely on something until you don't have it anymore!
Plus I'm still in this zombie like slump. Last night's Fit Hop class was so tiring, and I felt like I was phoning it in at times despite my best efforts to up my energy. Also, I've always been difficult to get out of bed in the morning, but this morning, it took Ben, 25 minutes just to get a response from me - and even then, it was another 10 before I was conscious enough to open my eyes and function (slightly). I'm also already on my second large coffee and it's not even noon.
Ashton gave me a box of daily multi-vitamins yesterday, and I took them this morning, hoping that my body is lacking in something, and that this will fill the void, and bring me back to myself again.
I hate feeling like this, all I want to do is sleep, I have no interest in doing anything, I'm not bubbly and happy, I'm slow moving and quiet. I even noticed last night I was having trouble carrying a conversation with my friends. It just feels like a chore - like I just don't want to do anything, and just be alone and sleep. That's not saying anything about my friends, it's all me.
Along with my multi-vitamins, I'm also going to book myself in to do some tanning to see if I can try to lift my spirits a little. I really think a lot of this is the lack of sunshine, as this mood only ever comes over me in the winter months, perhaps it's S.A.D (Seasonal Affective Disorder).
I don't know - I just hope it goes away and lets me get back to my regular fun, bubbly self soon.
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